Lesley's Views

I am.... complexity at its simplest and confusion at its clearest. I make fools of the intelligent and stoop to the level of the fool.
Invariably I push to be understood in a way that may seem abrasive or even silly at times. My heart is in the right place but my brain may not choose to follow...
I am.... ME!


Expectations

I expected this to happen. I just didn’t get a chance to say that. It was interesting while it lasted I suppose but like the predictability of the sun rising in the east I knew he would tire and soon grow annoyed.
I said some things that I probably shouldn’t have revealed though… But I don’t want to take them back. It intrigues me. Will I ever be done? Truly be done with this compulsion, this need…

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Let go

For the first time in almost three years, I don’t feel angry or upset at anyone for hurting me or breaking my heart. I’ve come to the conclusion that it is what it is. Its a part of life. People love, they get hurt and either continue to love or decide to give it a break. Me? I’m giving it a proper burial. Danity Kane’s “Damaged” was hilarious on Friday evening because while I related to it I…

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Life Lesson #5: Always Keep A Song In Your Heart.

Life Lesson #5: Always Keep A Song In Your Heart.

We are often prone to anger. Especially in cases where we are wronged. We lash out and often we create an even greater mountain of the current mole Hill.

I have learnt that keeping a level head and remaining calm during heated arguments or disruptive situations not only makes the situation diffuse faster but sometimes calms the other person without you having to do a thing.

I have a girlfriend…

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Inspiration

He sits worlds away from Me but shares his words in an instant on the fly.
He inspires Me…
I’m a sponge on a rainy day anxious to hear what he had to say..
He inspires Me…
Even though I dont deserve It,He loves Me still. His forgiveness I seek and His strength for my will. He inspires Me…
Each day I awake aiming to please and even when i don’t do as i’m told He never lets go. He constantly reminds…

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Reality Check

Let’s be honest. We’ve all at some point or the other lamented the fact that someone we love doesn’t love ua back. Either because of a break-up or unreciprocated feelings etc. Our first line of defense is to declare that nobody loves us. I had an experience a couple weeks ago where I was feeling really bad about something and declared that I had never been loved. A girlfriend of mine promptly…

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Silly Scholar

For someone who considers herself intelligent i sure can do some pretty dumb things. I’m an emotional hoarder. “Hoarding: Buried Alive” on TLC aint got nothing on me when It comes to emotional baggage. To say my ‘attic’ is full is an understatement. I hold on to and remember every bad thing that people i love have said to me since as far back as i can remember. I dont do It on purpose, It just…

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Came home to find out that the only thing different about Mandeville is me. The fact that people are now so different and so much happier isn’t lost on me. Their improvement may have nothing to do with me but it still hurts that things got better after I left.

sigh… I apparently put too much on friendships and relationships that meant something to me but nothing to others. My friend says maybe I put too much into the separation. I tend to agree. Coming back and catching up made me sad instead of happy. I longed to come home so bad and when I finally got here it just isn’t the same.

I’m heartbroken…

Longing….

Longing…. http://wp.me/s2OgsC-longing

When I had to move to mandeville for school, I fought the decisison tooth and nail. In my head I kmew it was the best decision for me, frankly I had made ghe decision all in my own. That howevef did not deter me from disliking uprooting my life and moving awaa vrom all I knew to go live in a strange town with my mom and herbest friend being the only two people I knew down there.
Three years passed…

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I seem to awkwardly reach out when I am feeling my worst, (Angry,frustrated,despondent) but as per usual I feel worse after…. Got to shake loose this bad habit!