People always say trust God when you talk about your problems but do they really mean that? Do they trust him? Or sis it a simple ploy to shut you up?!
What the devil was I thinking?! I’m never gonna be good enough at this will I? Might as well quit whil i’m ahead.
You’re secretive, and you do and say things that you don’t mean. You feed me lies and then wonder when I don’t reply to questions that you think I need to answer. I’ve fallen over and over and I’ve made the mistake
The mistake of not taking back what’s mine but giving more until I have nothing left and then giving again. I’m about to break…
I’ve caused through my negligence, self-inflicting and daily heartbreak and yet we smile and laugh and play.
You’ll never know what’s in my heart unless you see what I cannot say,
And yet, it matters not to you,
I’m just another pawn in your game.
A day will come when I won’t care, my thoughts, my views , my mind to share.
I won’t move or breathe your name, your face, your actions, your pain.
It will all become a memory, then fade like a wickered candle in the wind.
And then we’ll see, we’ll really see, if what I said, did I truly mean.
Totally out of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Some more good tips on how to break the perfectionism/procrastination cycle:
PS- kind of a watershed moment when I read the author’s comment about how perfectionism thrives in isolation. Tis true. We hide our unrealistic expectations from others because … well, we don’t want to be told they’re unrealistic. But that might be a key to breaking the logjam (so to speak).
“All men dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds, wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act on their dreams with open eyes, to make them possible.” - T.E. Lawrence